I found myself in a conversation with someone today and I can't say it was the prettiest conversation that I've ever had... But it was necessary. Even if the other party doesn't realize it. I'm still a little irked about the situation. It's not affecting my day to day, but it is making me look at things differently.
The situation: I've known this guy for a few years now, and at one point we were fairly good friends. He moved out of state some time this year and has recently found himself fired and with unpleasant living conditions, to say the least. I got a message from him saying he was trying to get enough money to come back home. Long story short, after talking to him today he was $20 short and had a crappy attitude. Now, obviously he's not in the most pleasant of situations; as I told him today though, having a bad perspective doesn't help anything. He didn't really like that. What he doesn't know is that I was thinking about sending him the last $20, but due to his attitude, I decided not to. I decided he had to do something for himself.
I'm not down for a pity ride. That's what I felt like was going on. I tried to bring some light to the situation and it was refused, really. It's his choice, it's on him.
He said this to me,"I'm sick of failing." Instantly, I thought "If you never follow through with anything, if you always give up when you're almost there, all you'll ever do is fail."
I'm not friends with quitters. I'm not friends with people who give up on the last stretch. So let's be honest here, grow a pair before you get a hold of me again. I don't need people in my life who refuse to see beauty, and refuse to appreciate what they do have, only seeing what they don't. If that's what holds you back, I don't want you around me.
Mark this as judgement. I'm done trying to soften what I say. I'm done beating around the bush. Let's just be honest, because I'm done with everything else.
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